So, I know I haven't updated LitToS in forever.  And I'm sorry.  I really, really am.  Life's been keeping me very busy these days and probably will through the end of July.  But...I'm updating now.  And I'll update again as soon as I possibly can.  Many, many thanks for being patient and awesome and putting up with my snail-esque writing speed.  I hope everyone's having a great summer!  

Title: Love in the Time of Science
Author: Morgen
Summary: Love. Tragedy. The things we’ve left unsaid. This is their story. Set after episode 5.05.
Disclaimer: I am not famous. I do not own TV shows. I am a poor college student with a laptop and a serious procrastination habit. 
Rating: Written for grownups. 

Soo, it seems I've used up all my magical free time.  Oh how I miss it.  The next update to LitToS is almost done, but I'm now watching my large army of small children all day everyday.  And I'm tired.  And exhausted.  Also tired again.  As soon as I fix the whole dead brain problem and think thoughts other than "Wash your hands for snack!" and "We don't run in our class!" I promise I will edit and post chapter 17.  But right now, I just want to sleeeeeppppp.

On the bright side, one of the kids made me a drawing of a blue-haired* me wearing a coconut on top of my head. 

*My hair is brown.  Also, I have never worn a coconut.  As a hat or anything else.

*obligatory twirl*

I’ve been wanting to do more than just change the header since pretty much forever, and now that I have been inundated with shiny, magical free time, I finally did it. Do let me know if anything is broken because I was tweaking the CSS all over the place and I do not actually know how CSS works at all. It was an ADVENTURE. Also, a headache. But, it is done, and I’m kinda in love with it a lot?

In other news, my subconscious apparently thinks that Susan Boyle and William Hung would make a good couple. Because that is what I dreamt the other night. It was such a convincing dream that I may have possibly googled it when I woke up to make sure it hadn’t already happened for real. But no luck. I was apparently the only one aware of the BREAKING NEWS going on inside my head.

In case you have been avoiding pop culture for many, many years…

( i will educate you! )

I spent the whole night watching the two of them engage in couch cuddling and have awkward conversations about touching. Inside of my head. While I was trying to SLEEP. Subconscious, what is wrong with you??

Except now, I kinda really want to set them up on a blind date for real? I mean, she can sing. He can do that thing with his hips. Clearly they’d both bring a lot to the table in this relationship. And with their shared experience appearing on reality TV, the conversation topics would be endless! Should they run out of ideas, they can always fall back on talk of awkward touching. Or, you know, if you’re my subconscious, start there first.

Slightly faster update you guys! Oh free time, ILY!

Title: Love in the Time of Science
Author: Morgen
Summary: Love. Tragedy. The things we’ve left unsaid. This is their story. Set after episode 5.05.
Disclaimer: I am not famous. I do not own TV shows. I am a poor college student with a laptop and a serious procrastination habit. 
Rating: Written for grownups. 

( Love in the Time of Science - Ch. 16 )

But I’ve been wanting to do this 70 facts meme that was floating around on the flist a few days ago. And now that finals are officially over, I have time to breathe. And, you know, talk about myself excessively.

( when i say excessively, i do mean excessively )

Okay, so I didn’t think I’d be able to post this until sometime after Wednesday when the semester ends. But then I was working on it just a little before getting to my homework, and I kinda…uh, kept going and finished the whole thing instead? Which means I haven’t written any of my assignments and I’m leaving in just over forty-eight hours and haven’t packed so much as a single bag and ahahaha epic fail. But, oh well. Because fic, right? This chapter actually had me crying a little while I was writing it (which never happens because I am apparently very, very heartless), so, um, do not hate me for the sad bits, k? Because they were very EMOTIONALLY DRAINING to write.

Also, I will get around to posting the rest of my abandoned fics since you guys seemed interested. But I’ll save them for the next time I’m really crap at updating LitToS. Which seems to happen kinda a lot.

Title: Love in the Time of Science
Author: Morgen
Summary: Love. Tragedy. The things we’ve left unsaid. This is their story. Set after episode 5.05.
Disclaimer: I am not famous. I do not own TV shows. I am a poor college student with a laptop and a serious procrastination habit. 
Rating: Written for grownups. 

( Love in the Time of Science - Ch. 15 )

As requested, crappy grab bag fic! I think I'll post them one at a time. Space them out a bit to disguise how truly awful I am at updating LitToS on schedule. (This sounds like a master plan, yes?) So, have the dirty post S2 one first. Because it's at least complete. Also porny and adulterous and wrong. I posted an excerpt of this way back when at some Grey's porn battle thing a few years ago, so on the off chance that it's familiar to you, that's why. However, this is longer and modified and Meredith and Derek are not nice people in it. So yeah.  That's that.  You've been warned.

Title: We Are Nowhere and It's Now
Author: Morgen
Summary: Because history always repeats itself, whether it means to or not.  Meredith and Derek, post S2.  In a world less happy than S3.  And that's saying something. 
Disclaimer: I am not famous. I do not own TV shows. I am a poor college student with a laptop and a serious procrastination habit. 
Rating: Written for grownups. 

( We Are Nowhere and It's Now )

So, I really am writing the next chapter of LitToS.  For serious.  But, I have precisely four days of school left this semester if you don't count the weekend (and I don't.  I so don't.) and a lot of my usual writing time has been eaten up by must-pass-this-class time.  Always fun.  Chapter 15 is coming.  Just slower than I'd like.  This would be me apologizing for the delay and stuff.  Also, sick Der and distraught Mer are kinda draining characters to write, so, um, it's not my fault? 

However, I did have an idea to appease you lovely people who are nice enough to read my fic when I do get around to posting it.  Ah...I have lots and lots of scraps of Grey's fics that I abandoned without finishing, one very depressing, angsty S4 oneshot without a happy ending, and one very dirty, angsty post S2 oneshot that I've never posted here.  And I could post some/all/none of them if people are interested in reading.  I wrote them awhile back so they might be rather crappy compared to how I write now because I like to tell myself I improve at things.  Ha.  But yes, this is my question.  It's going to be at least a few days before I can get up the next LitToS chapter, so would you like to read any of the things in my crappy grab bag of fic in the mean time?  Scraps of fic strike me as possibly unfulfilling, however, dirty, porny oneshots are always good, right? 

Also, I'm having a sudden, intense desire to write a oneshot where both Izzie and George die and everything is wrong with the world.  Somebody PLEASE tell me this is a HORRIBLE IDEA and to stay far, far away from it.

Also, also?  SCHOOL?  Please stop kicking my ass, k??

So, this is what you call blatant therapy fic.  In which I take everything that bothered me about the finale, and give myself exactly what I wanted instead.  Yep.  Very, very therapeutic.  I'm feeling nice and healed now.  A little.  At least it's helped calm my need to rage.

Also, a LitToS update should hopefully be coming some time later this week (it's finals at school right now though, so please be patient with me!).

Title: Remember Me as a Time of Day
Author: Morgen
Summary: Life is a circle.  It goes on.  Post S5 finale fic.  Largely MerDer, but also a bit ensemble-ish in nature compared to my usual MerDer festivals.  Some shades of Cris/Owen and Alex/Izzie.
Warning: Obvious spoilers for finale.  Also, CHARACTER DEATH.  DUN, DUN, DUN!
Disclaimer: I am not famous. I do not own TV shows. I am a poor college student with a laptop and a serious procrastination habit. 
Rating: Written for grownups.  And not quite grownups too.

( Remember Me as a Time of Day )

Yeah. Still pissed. Sleep didn’t do a thing.

( But, um, have a review?  )

A FUCKING POST-IT??  SERIOUSLY???  THAT BETTER NOT BE ALL WE EVER GET.

Ugh.  Will post real thoughts as soon as I have them.  Once all the rage goes away.  I think I liked it, but I'm too irritated by the post-it note to decide for sure.

ETA:  Yep, still hating the post-it.  A lot.  Actual review to come some time early tomorrow because I'm running on two hours sleep, and I'm so exhausted at this point I'm pretty much only capable of coming up with angry, run-on sentences chock full of CAPSLOCKED HATE. 

I liked the 100th eppy. A lot. I think I’m one of the few MerDer fans who did, but then I'm also a pretty big I/A fan, so the bait and switch didn't upset me as much as it would’ve if it'd been any other couple upstaging MerDer. However, I was clearly promised a LOVE LETTER from Shonda, and that eppy was no love letter to me. Because, as you may have noticed, Mer and Der were kinda not hanging out together all that much on MAGICAL 100 LOVE LETTER DAY.

So, um, I made one myself? Happy love letter to meeee. Or, you know, you guys. For less narcissism. Because this couple has come so freaking far in 100 eppys, and, as much as I do love Iz, another IzzieFest wasn't exactly how I wanted to celebrate the occasion. Also because they're really, really pretty people and I want to see it all lined up. Just like a flipbook. Only now with scrolling!

So, in honor of season finale day, have a really, really long picspam. With way too much commentary.



( So is this a good place to hang out? )

Oh, 100th episode. Thank you for being epic.

(  And that’s 100 episodes of MerDer, you guys. 100!!!!!!!!  )

Soo…I said I’d post this Wednesdayish. And okay, yeah. It’s technically after midnight and therefore Thursday. But, um…I haven’t gone to sleep yet, making this day absolutely still count as Wednesdayish. Yep. Especially as I still have to do all of my Thursdayish homework.

Title: Love in the Time of Science
Author: Morgen
Summary: Love. Tragedy. The things we’ve left unsaid. This is their story. Set after episode 5.05.
Disclaimer: I am not famous. I do not own TV shows. I am a poor college student with a laptop and a serious procrastination habit. 
Rating: Written for grownups. 

( Love in the Time of Science - Ch. 14 )

Yeah.  This post was supposed to be an update on how LitToS is coming along.  (And it is coming.  I'm editing the next chapter right now.  I should be able to post it Tuesday Wednesdayish.)

But, instead let's talk about how there is MerDer sexing.  NAKED, FIREPLACE, MAYBE MARRIED SEXING.  With balloons and blankets and little white wedding bell thingys.  For serious, you guys.  I cannot even handle how my ship is suddenly this amazing all the time.  Like very hardcore, 24/7, serious business amazingggggg.  Season four, what season four?  Season three finale?  I DO NOT REMEMBER YOU. 

Basically, Thursday night, 8pm?  PLEASE HAPPEN RIGHT NOW. 

Now that was one freaking amazing episode. Oh, Grey’s. I don’t even know what to say.

( i love so much about the things you choose to be )

So, I finally got around to watching Sweet Surrender, and hmm…not a bad eppy. I mean, ELL is pretty much an impossible act to follow, and there were some things about this that felt rather set-up/filler-y, but I am pleased.

( some very late thoughts )

Soooo, I'm officially back from Greece.  And very, very glad to be back.  The trip in a nutshell?  Disease and destruction.  Or, in other words, got into a car accident on the way to the airport.  Nothing too serious and no one got hurt, but there's nothing like a good car wreck to put a damper on the start of a trip.  And then once in Greece, I managed to get what I'm pretty sure was the world's worst cold and spent several days just laying in various hotel beds.  This was also fun.  Still, Greece was crazy beautiful and I'm certain that at some point I had a really good time. 

I have the pictures to prove it.  Somewhere. 

But I haven't slept in well over twenty-four hours at this point so finding and loading pictures will have to wait until later.  As will pretty much everything else.  I'm a little scared to look at just how far behind on my flist I am at this point.  So, um, be patient with me?  I am a traumatized internationaI traveler, after all.  And I'll try to catch up and comment and write things and post things as soon as I can.

However, because I find this way too exciting to wait until later, Ellen is PREGNANT?? 

EXCITING THINGS, YOU ARE NOT ALLOWED TO HAPPEN WHILE I'M OUT OF THE COUNTRY.   

Seriously though, that is wonderful for her and happy and good and all sorts of adjectives I'm way too tired to think of on zero sleep.  And, um, MerDer get a baby now too, right?  Right?? 

So, yes. As you may know since I’ve been babbling about it a lot lately, I’m going to Greece. And I’ll be there for two weeks, which should be interesting since as of now I know about six words of Greek. Yep…

This is pretty much just to say that I won’t be posting until I get back since I’m leaving my beloved laptop behind. If anything exciting happens, do feel free to leave me a comment here because I’m going to be so freaking out of the loop, you guys. Ohh, internets. What will I do without you? It’s making me sad. (But, Greece! So, you know. Just a little bit of sad.) Also sad? The way the Grey’s hiatus did not specifically line itself up with my travel plans. Um, what’s up with that, Show? Way to make my hiatus even longer. But enjoy wedding dress Mer, you guys! I’ll probably post my very late thoughts on the episode when I get back. And the next chapter of LitToS as soon as I can. Also, a ridiculous amount of pictures from Greece. So basically no posts for awhile, but then a boatload of posts when I get back. Something like that.

I’ll miss all of you lots! See you in two weeks!